Sep 19, 2006

Finding a Rhythm

I seem to get all these great ideas for blog posts, but can't seem to find the time to get them done. Sound familiar to anyone else?

After 13+ months of motherhood, I finally seem to be creating a good, sustainable rhythm for my days and weeks. Whereas I spent last year studying in 1-2 hour bursts between feedings and naps (and generally accomplished very little on my thesis), we've arranged for me to have 4-6 hour study blocks, three days in a row. This is incomparably better; I'm much more productive and don't feel like I'm just spinning my wheels. I've also printed out my thesis outline (with subtopics) and taped it to my study carrel, where I can check off papers as I complete them. Plato? Check. Aristotle? Check. Stoics? Check. Hauerwas? Check. MacIntyre? Check. One hundred others? Not yet...

Sometimes I can't imagine how I'll transition from this endeavor to teaching ethics. I don't see how I'll get my intellectual shit together, so to speak, and have anything coherent to contribute. I read the blogs of other folks in academia, or in the Emergent conversation, and they seem to sound so much... further along. I need to remind myself that finishing my thesis is the task before me right now, and that when I get to the next step, I'll probably be as prepared as the next PhD flunkie.

This new rhythm is also good for my relationship with the Crunchie. Now, when I leave the library, I leave my work there and don't worry about it at home. So, from 3 PM on Wednesday to 9 Am on Monday, I can focus on the girl, and the hubby, and the community.

Now, I just need to find a rhythm for exercising and cleaning house. Any suggestions?


MeesheMama said...

Glad you have found a comfortable rhythm. That is so important. I'm searching desperately for my own. And let me tell you, if you think it's hard with one kid.... I'm not complaining, but I chucked exersize and cleaning a long time ago. =( love you!

billy said...

Honey.....I love you and I think that you are doing great, just where you need to be. Keep up the good work and never doubt that what you're doing matters to a lot of people...especially me!

Anonymous said...

Maria, it's great that you have found this rhythm --good for everyone and productive for you. As far as being able to "transition" --you will do great! At this point, you know more than 99.5% of us now.
As far as housekeeping --you know I'm not the one to come to. Remember what the late and great Ann Richards said --"I don't want my tombstone to say 'She kept a really clean house.'" Here's to Ann! I love you. Mom

Marie Eldridge said...


You are amazing! I thought I would tell you that. Let me know when you want to get together with the kids and go to the pumpkin patch.